Murdering intent alert -- Aborted. Oh, ALERT ONCE AGAIN!

(Written one Tuesday. December 2013.) 

Hello crazy people in this crazy world! You know, actually I'm in such a bad mood right now (even if it doesn't seem so -but yeah, I am) and it's all because this year just sucked big time. Well, no, not really. It was a great year, actually xD But, you see, when you're almost finishing it and you've still got one freaking test to go- JUST ALJSDHALJSHDLAKS. DIE YOU CRUEL TEST! 

So yeah, this FINAL EXAM is driving me crazy and it's been giving me negative thoughts about everything. And even if I'm still missing like half of the contents I need to study for it (and it's in one day and a half, no biggie) I have this really strong and impossible to resist urge of...of...of just doing nothing. It's like I don't care. Really. (Is that even normal? Knowing that you still have a long way to go and still don't really caring?)

When I get like this I'm like the worst person to deal ever.

I swear I'm not depressed (maybe I seem to be -or I just have anger issues or something that I can definitely not control after my anime-deprived state I got into this whole month), I just need my Holy VACATIONS! I even failed a course so now I have to start classes earlier so suck it (I'm the sucker tbh hahaha) and leave me alone you stupid exam. 

I don't feel like studying anymore :c 

Is it too much to ask to have time to read what I actually feel like reading instead of trying to understand terms and memorize numbers after numbers to find out you forget them like an hour later? (And it gets even more difficult when you realize your attention span is worst than one of a flee.) (Poor flees, they may actually be smart, right?)

I know, I know. Only one day and a half to go... But I just can't. I just- URGH!

[And "today"... (one Thursday, same month.)]

I. ACTUALLY. PASSED. 

How? I have no idea. And I think I never will actually know. But does it matter? I'm on holidays now!!! So yeah. No more murdering intents (at least not for now :p), just relaxing time!

Do you know what I like the most about being on holidays? No, not partying. No, not anime either. Not even manga. SLEEPING. I can freaking sleep til the hour I want to! No alarm clocks involved, no more anxious feelings of not having enough time to finish studying some subject and no more >250 pages to read in a day. This is just great. 

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(Written one Friday. February 2014)

You know those days when any minimal thing can piss you off no matter how lame it is? Well, I'm in that mood right now. 

Today's been a very long day; what with my professor being all rude to us just because he had a fight with -what we assume her to be- his wife (I mean, alright, poor guy, no one likes to be on the bad side of that some one you love and treasure and all- but it isn't our freaking fault. Treat us with the same respect we treat you.), then coming home to find your stuff all misplaced (some stuff is still MIA, for crying out loud). DON'T YOU GET THAT MURDERING INTENT WHEN PEOPLE TOUCH YOUR THINGS!? They are in different piles, angles and distribution for a reason in particular -and that reason isn't for YOU to come and put them all in the same regular, angle-free pile, you m*ron!- it actually is for me to identify what each thing has, which, of course, now I have no freaking idea because your filthy hands "organized" everything. (Just because you see it well-organized from the outside, it doesn't mean everything's neat. No. It doesn't. Not when afterwards you can't find anything!). 

Oh and I'm still searching for a bag. 

Call me if you happen to find it. 

#donttalktome #iBite #wishingforthedaypeoplestartmindingtheirownpileoftrash

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(Written one Tuesday night -well more like one Wednesday at dawn)

What's up people!? So here I am, still alive -yeah, it's a mystery for both, you and me, my friend. I don't really know how I passed two exams on early march either tbh! Everything's passed so fast that I'm already on a new school (uni) year. And damn, isn't it difficult! I would say impossible, I don't have that many neurons to rationalize and come up with logical answers. HELLO, MY BRAIN DOES NOT WORK. I REPEAT, IT DOES NOT WORK -at least properly. I swear I can't do it *sigh*

But, I still have my procrastinating abilities so I don't really mind ;D

xx 

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III. Despair

            Third POV

Once both of them were out of the room, Ángeles was finally able to let a sigh of relief out of her mouth. She tried getting a bit more comfortable over the bed she was sat on and laid the side of her head on the wall. She still couldn’t find the reason why she was kidnapped. They had no money, no contacts or nothing of the sort… what did those men want from her and her mother? Anyhow, she knew that she wouldn’t find the answer until she was set free… if that time ever happened… Would she ever get to see the sky again?

She laid over the bed to rest for a bit while they weren’t around her but couldn’t let herself relax too much as she wasn’t sure when they were going to return –and she couldn’t possibly be asleep when they came back… she still didn’t know what they could do to her.

Silence

All she could hear was nothing. And this didn’t help with the fact that her brain started to think over and over again the worst possible situations. She had seen way too many movies about kidnappings; and some things she’d learned from them were that they were always planned either for the ransom or to sell women as prostitutes. Would they do that to her? Would she see her mother ever again?

As she turned, her back facing the door, she couldn’t help but start realizing how tired she was. It was difficult for her to keep her eyelids from closing and falling asleep. The cloth around her eyes weren’t of much help, since it was bothersome, making her itchy.

- Don’t fall asleep, Angie…d-don’t fall as-leep… - She kept murmuring to herself.

            Even if she was trying really hard, it was in vain. She couldn’t fight her body’s needs. She was too tired and couldn’t do anything about it. She needed to rest, whether she wanted or not.

            Her heartbeat started slowing its pace; her breaths were now harmoniously even.

          She wasn’t snoring but, evidently, she had fallen asleep. At least she could now dream and escape the real word that was crushing her.

            Fifteen minutes have passed and she was still asleep. Some noises could be heard from the other side of the door but Angie didn’t seem to notice. It seemed that they had come back from wherever they had gone to.

Afterwards, they started heading to the door. The door that led to Angie’s room.

- So? - One of them asked from the back of the door.

- Ev’rything’s a’ight, man. She was blubberin’ somethin’ all da time. ‘see when they start talkin’ to ‘emselves? - The man who apparently had stayed to watch her answered with a deep accent.

- Hm, it’s always like that. -

- Yeah, but never had I seen a chick talk to ‘erself that much, man. She’s cray-cray! ‘been affected too much, don’t’cha think? -

- I don’t really care to be honest. You can leave if you want, I’m staying with him. - The man brushed the cold man’s words off and left them alone. A car’s engine roared alive and gravel was heard as it pulled away from the driveway. - Let’s see how daddy’s girl is doing. - He chuckled of his own joke and entered the room followed by another man.

            The man who seemed to be the leader analyzed the room and quickly realized that one piece of cloth was on the table. He moved towards it, and grasped it with so much force that he almost knocked the lamp that was next to it, to the floor. Clearly annoyed, he turned around and glared at the other man.

- Brock, isn’t this supposed to be tied over the girl’s mouth? - He spat, clearly raged.

- Y-yes… b-but you came in a hurry and… w-we left in such a rush-h that I… - he paused and gulped - that I forgot… sorry…-

- Sorry? What would have happened if she had cried for help and alarmed the neighbors!? - The raise in his voice was so unexpected that Brock flinched and took a step away. He looked to the floor, still scared.

- It won’t happen again. - He tried sounding convincing but wasn’t still able to speak loud enough, and it came more as a whisper.

- No, no it won’t. - He turned around and focused on Angie once again. After looking intently at her, up and down, he finally said choosing his words wisely: - The lass is eye-catching, don’t you think? - A grin materialized on his face.

- I guess so. - He replied on a whim afraid to be yelled at again.

- Don’t stress yourself out, Brock. It was merely a comment. - He laughed out loud and patted Brock’s shoulder. For a couple of minutes all you could hear was his laugh and Angie’s even breaths. Brock looked back at him as he couldn’t really comprehend what the joke was about. - Let’s talk to her for some minutes. - He smirked maliciously. The man started approaching the bed, so that he could have a sit next to her, but Brock was faster and stood on his way. - What the hell is wrong with you? -

- She’s sleeping… -

- Yeah, so? - He inquired with a clear look of annoyance in his face as his eyebrows furrowed closer.

- Yo-our talk can wait. - Brock swallowed hard, trying to hide how he was really feeling at the moment, and the leader, a bit stunned but still mad, answered:

- Okay. I’m hungry anyway; I’m going to eat something. - He shrugged and threw his hand over his shoulder as a goodbye gesture, leaving the room. Brock, still shocked by the way both of them had acted, felt his heart beating so fast and with such power inside his ribcage that he thought it was possible for it to actually make its way out.

            He walked towards the far end of the bed and sat on the floor, against the wall. Laying his head on both of the palms of his hands, he furiously grasped his disheveled strands of hair. He was in such a desperate state that he couldn’t stop the tears coming out of his eyes.

- God, oh God… why did I have to get involved in this? -

<<Chapter 2 - Blinded  -----  Chapter #4>>

Jibber Jabber

Guess what? I have to study so I'm escaping once again over here yaaaay~! It's one of my little excuses not to study. Pff, who needs to study anyway? Me, me!! I have an exam on Tuesday-again :( 

So, on a complete different line, I've finally finished watching Shingeki no Kyojin. It's soooo good. I want to know what happens next. It was kind of obvious that *spoilers* Annie was the woman-titan tbh... but I didn't see her fight with Eren's titan ending like that! *spoilers end* It was awesome. I want to know what happens next -but I'm not sure whether there's going to be another season. So maybe -just maybe- I will start reading the manga. Just to know whether my suspicions about the other titans are true ;)

I HAVE THIS BAD HABIT OF STARTING NEW ANIME WITHOUT FINISHING OTHERS UGH.
I started watching: Strike the Blood, Kyoukai no Kanata, Tokyo Ravens, Miss Monochrome, Log Horizon, Diabolik Lovers, Another, Kimi to Boku...and others. I SUCK LOL.

I'm really liking Strike the Blood, Kyoukai no Kanata and Log Horizon!

Strike the Blood is about a guy, Akatsuki Kojou, who is apparently the Fourth Progenitor (a cool and really powerful vampire who apparently shouldn't exist or something like that -so that's why this Lion King and government is keeping an eye on him) and is 'being watched' by Himeragi Yukina who supposedly is a really good sword shaman but, honestly, she almost died two or three times!
ON THE LAST EPISODE I WATCHED I WAS LEFT LIKE OH MY GOD. I really need to know what happens next! *spoilers* that monk took his fre*king head off! *spoilers end* It was SO UNEXPECTED, so good. I need another episode. Like, right now.
So, here a pic, as I always do.

{More info here}


Kyoukai no Kanata. Um... I like it because it has a mixture of fantasy, supernatural, comedy and serious business (?) sorry I started thinking about Dan Howell all of a sudden LOL
So there is this girl, Kuriyama who's about to jump from the school's rooftop and Akihito sees her and goes to her rescue. They both end up realizing about their true natures (Akihito is half youmu, half human and Kuriyama has a special ability: she's capable of manipulating her blood and she can make this really cool sword with it. And some sort of bombs?).

 

So, Akihito can't die -well, his wounds heal really fast- (and has a BIG glasses fetish LOL) and so Kuriyama starts chasing him in the school grounds just to "kill him several times".
Then you also have Hiroomi Nase, who is plainly strange (he is so weird god haha), but I like him. He has a sister complex xD

Hahah I just can't- and he did it twice already

But when he is serious he seems to be really powerful too ^^

So, all in all, I like it :)
Here, a gif of the third episode (maybe?). I couldn't stop laughing haha.

Akihito is so right hahaha

{More info here}


And now- *DRUM ROLLS* -Log Horizon!
People compare it to SAO (Sword Art Online) or maybe Btooom! but I think it's just because when you read the description of the anime it says the characters are stuck on an Online game -so, everyone who's watched SAO immediately link it to it... BUT, I think this one is much better :) (just an opinion though)  It's not just me! YAY 
To be honest, I didn't even get to finish SAO because I got bored -so maybe I'm not the one who's capable of saying that LH is better than SAO then xD- but sorry, I didn't find any plot inside it so I just dropped it. Instead, in Log Horizon, you don't see romance as one of the TOP genres in the anime- I think its more of an Adventure/Fantasy/Comedy first rather than a Romance type of anime.

Naotsugu's ass being kicked by Akatsuki. Shiroe is the one on the side ^^ 

Well, it's still on the beginning so no one can tell :)
The differences I could notice first are that the characters are REALLY living inside Elder Tale (the name of the Online Game they were playing before they got stuck in it) and so they have to feed themselves (HAHA I can't stop laughing when they say all the food tastes the same, no matter what), have this cool guilds and they also re-spawn! So you cannot escape the game by 'dying'. Also, the interesting thing about this is that they got stuck after they all installed a new game's update so there might be changes they still don't know about it!

This is what I was talking about ^^

A plus is that its opening ROCKS.

• "Database feat. TAKUMA (10 Feet)" by MAN WITH A MISSION {watch it here} {listen&DL with account} {Nightcore version}

And here, some info about the characters!

Shiroe (シロエ)                                                                      

Race: Half-Alv

Class: Enchanter
Subclass: Scribe
Guild: None
Affiliation: Debauchery Tea Party

Akatsuki (アカツキ)                                                             

Race: Human
Class: Assassin
Subclass: Tracker
Guild: None

Naotsugu (直継)                                                                  

Race: Human
Guardian, Lv. 90
Guild: None

And some of Shiroe's spells!

                                                                                                                        Credits

As for the others Animes I've mentioned, I'll talk about them some other time~ I've to go an study :D KILL ME
So, stay safe. Bai bai-

Star.

2013!?

Oh my... it's been so long since I've been here! I've almost forgotten about this little space I used to write -not so much haha. 

What has been going on with my life since I've last written over here? Well, to be honest, A WHOLE LOT. WHOA. Yeah, I've finished school, so now I'm already on UNI. YEAH, like Ed's song hahaha. I'm weird.

So, I'm studying a lot, and I don't have much free time. It's hard. But I love it so much. 

Of course that that doesn't keep me from watching new anime and reading manga! Not. at. all. Books can't keep me away from my guilty pleasures *glares at piles of books* yeah, they are staring at me right now because I have to study for an exam I have on Tuesday. I had one last Friday and I've just come back from holidays! MY GOD, GIVE ME A BREAK. ~There's no such thing in this career~ Meh.

Well, I don't really know how to post anything over here anymore, so I'll just show what I've been recently watching! ^^ 

1) Shingeki no Kyojin.

The only comment I'll make is that it's SICK. I love it.

{Read Synopsis here}

From Right to Left--> Armin, Eren, Jean, Mikasa and Levi

OH, and I love Levi. Period. (No, I didn't choose this picture because he is right there on the back *avoids eye contact*)

It's an ongoing anime, based on a manga, and both openings till now are awesome. Linked Horizon is the artist who interpret both ops: 

• #1 "Guren no Yumiya (紅蓮の弓矢)" (Eps 1-13) [Listen to FULL version] 
• #2 "Jiyuu no Tsubasa (自由の翼)" (Eps 14-??) [Listen to FULL version]

And here a mini mix of Shingeki's OST ^^ 

And just because I feel like laughing, see this funny .gif HAHAH.

Can't get enough of Levi *sigh*

If you want to watch the video where they MOVE LIKE JÄEGER *wink wink* Click this link

2) Brothers Conflict

LOL, it has NOTHING to do with the previous anime right? Well, I still love reverse harems as you can EASILY see. Not much to say, it's not THAT good, but I still love it because of the genre.

What am I going to do with myself? 

Brother's conflict is kind of incest because it's about a girl (Hinata Ema) whose father got remarried with this woman WHO HAPPENS TO HAVE 13 SONS. (OMG, we can all easily see which was her hobby. GET A GRIP LMAO.) So all these gorgeous guys (the Asahina brothers) are her step-brothers all of a sudden, and they think she's quite cute. 

I love her squirrel Juli who calls her "Chiii~" *reads with Juli's voice* =3=

From Top to Bottom and from Left to Right--> Subaru, Kaname, Masaomi, Fuuto, Wataru, Iori, Ukyo, Yuusuke, Tsubaki, Azusa and Louis with Juli on his shoulder. Missing in picture: Natsumi and Hikaru

My favorite brothers would be Wataru and Masaomi (Yeah! The cute little one that's only 10 years old and the cute pediatrician, who is 31- don't judge me.). 

{To Read the description and info about this anime, head here}

3) Psycho-pass

It's an ActionxSci-fixBlood anime, which I think is really cool! 
I've started watching it a while ago but have to put it on stand-by because of uni, so now I have to catch up with it! Well, it finished airing so, it won't take much time... AND it's going to have a SEQUEL, HELL YEAH!

"Production I.G’s CEO Mitsuhisa Ishikawa made the announcement at Anime Expo 2013 during an anime panel, confirming that production on the second season was already underway. He did not however give any details on when the series would air or how many episodes have been allotted for the second season." --Source

From Left to Right--> Shion, Shuusei, Kunizuka, Kougami, Akane, Nobuchika and Masaoka 

The guns they use there are awesome.

Watch the trailer! And read what's the plot about!

It also has two openings. I've only listened to one though! I'm sure the other one is good too since it's by Nothing's Carved in Stone and I like them. They've sung the opening theme for Zetsuen no Tempest too! [Spirit Inspiration]

• #1 "abnormalize" by Ling Tosite Sigure (凛として時雨) (Eps 1-11)
• #2 "Out of Control" by Nothing's Carved in Stone (Eps 12-22)

                                            o~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~o

Well, I've also been watching other anime like K-memory of red, Zetsuen no Tempest, Blood Lad, Free! and Uta no Prince-sama 2000%. 

The same thing that happened to me with Psycho-Pass, happened to me with K {here} and Zetsuen no Tempest {here}. So I have to catch up with them too! Both are really good and interesting in their own ways ^^ 

Zetsuen no Tempest

K -memory of red

BLOOD LAD IS SO FUNNY. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I LAUGH SO MUCH WHEN I WATCH IT HAHAHA. But I love Staz, he seems so bored all the time that it's so amusing. I love the fact that he is a vampire who is crazy about human stuff. You can even see how he collects little action figures of DBZ, Sailor moon and there's manga everywhere haha. 

{Description here}

From Top to Bottom and Left to Right--> Braz, Liz, Bell, Saty with Mamejirou on her head, Fuyumi, Wolf and Staz.

If you feel like watching some anime about sport, and actually try to learn about it while watching it you should watch Free!. NOT. You won't even get to concentrate with that much skin showing LMAO. No, not really. But well, you'll listen everywhere that it's an anime to drool about their bodies. 

In case you're wondering, they swim. So, yeah.

{Description here}

From Left to Right--> Nagisa, Makoto, Haruka, Rei and Rin

I'm not lying. Click this link on your own risk. 

HAHAHA I don't know what you were waiting for -don't look at me like that.

Oh those muscles...

And last but not least... UtaPri 2000%! 

From Left to Right--> Masato, Natsuki, Shou, Otoya, Cecil, Tokiya and Ren

I didn't really like it to be honest. I mean, I did like the art, but, first of all,I have never really liked Nanami. In fact, my urge to punch her increased, if that's even possible. Secondly, I felt like there were too many characters and that made it impossible to cover everything up. It's like you could only see each guy for about two seconds each episode. And finally *spoiler alert* the last episodes there were SUDDENLY three new guys, HEAVENS, whose song was DEFINITELY better than STARISH's song. Well, that's my opinion. HEAVENS should have won. PLUS you could TOTALLY see Cecil's being the new member of STARISH coming... *end of spoilers* 

The only pros I've found were: 1) Cecil, I found myself laughing at how naïve he could be sometimes ^^ and 2) Some songs were pretty cool ^^ If you want some of them, I've uploaded them to aimini, you can search them there! :)

So that's all young folks! (Yes, I was listening to that song haha).
Some time later I'll talk about the new bands I've been listening to lately~

Xxxx. 
Star.

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II. Blinded

                        Third POV

            It was a dark, grey and eerie place. Of course she wasn’t aware of those facts since she was blindfolded around her eyes, mouth, wrists and ankles. Lying on the floor, she tried sitting down after several unsuccessful attempts. Frantically and weakly, she let herself fall to the floor once again and started crying without knowing what to do. Her tears stained the thick cloth that wrapped both of her eyes, making it even harder to keep her head up.

            The wooden door creaked when it was opened. A person entered the room and looked right at her. A few more minutes went by and he was still standing up there. Motionless. The girl kept weeping, still not aware of his presence. Step by step, he got near the thin and dirty mattress that was now her bed. As he sat down, the springs squeaked, alarming her. Reflexively, she tried getting further away from the person and, consequently, she hit her back against the wall. Hard. She wailed because of the new pain she was now feeling, and he stood up almost instantly and crouched next to her fragile frame.  Feeling his breath a few inches above from her made her cried even more desperately.

            He held her with both of his hands, trying to put her on both of her feet and take her to the bed. He took some distance after positioning her over the bed. Some minutes later he took some steps over her once again, and asked harshly with a lump on his throat:

- Are you thirsty? - Angie nodded quickly but suspiciously. - Be right back. - He said and made his way towards the door. She could perceive some noises coming from the other side of the door. Whispers, she thought. Once again, the door creaked open. - Now I’m going to untie the cloth so that you can drink this. Don’t make me do something that, truly, I don’t want to do. Don’t scream. - She nodded once again and dropped her head, tiredly. He got near her and with both of his hands carefully loosed the piece of cloth that was tied insensitively over her mouth and placed it over a nightstand that was nearby. He grasped the glass that he’d previously left on the same table and took a seat beside her. When he was almost pouring the content of the glass inside her mouth she asked:

- You didn’t put anything inside it, did you? - She couldn’t hide the terrified tone behind her question.

- No. - She didn’t have much of a choice. She had to drink that or die of thirst. In the end she put her lips on the rim of the glass and, once she felt the fresh liquid inside her mouth, she started chugging it. - Hey, drink slowly. Sip by sip. The last thing I want is for you to choke and die. - After his words, she started drinking normally. Once she had finished drinking, he got up ready to leave.

- Isn’t that what you want? - Ángeles inquired almost inaudibly.

- What? - He was truly puzzled.

- To kill me. That’s what you are trying to do, right? - Her voice sounded harsher by now. You could almost say she was angry. - Why are you denying it? -

- Brock! Why the hell are you taking so long!? - A voice raged over the other side of the door.

- You want to kill me, I know. - She repeated over and over again, more to herself than anything. Brock, without knowing what to answer, left the room silently.

            Ángeles POV

I was baffled. I didn’t know where I got the courage to say those words to him. But, I knew that courage wasn’t going to last much time- in fact, it was swaying away right now. I was terribly scared because I didn’t know what was going on and what they wanted to do to me. The worst possible situations flashed through my mind and I wished this was all a dream caused by the stupid movie I was watching hours –or maybe days– before with my friend. Going back to that time, I was safe… I sniffed loudly when a thought crossed my mind: he even insisted to take me home…

Tears streamed down my face once again. I was still hoping to wake up soon because… this was definitely a dream, right? I knew I was lying to myself. Why did this have to happen to me… what did I do wrong?

Suddenly I was cold. Shivering, I searched for any signs of the jumper I was wearing but it was nowhere to be found. I tried getting more comfortable in the bed that stranger had laid me in –as comfortable as someone could be in this mattress, seeing as it was as thick as a piece of paper. It was a rough task given that my hands, feet and eyes were all still tied up. Luckily, he had forgotten to tie my mouth up once again as he was brusquely called by someone outside. That made me think: how many of them were here with me?

The door creaked open. This time I had definitely heard someone inside the room I was in –if this was a room, of course. I didn’t know whether to speak or do something in particular, so I preferred staying quiet. My ears seemed to sharpen as I paid special attention to each of his steps. He was getting closer. Abruptly, he stopped. He was in front of me, I could feel it. Involuntarily, I started shivering. What was he going to do to me?

- Is somebody there? - I asked, even if I already knew the answer to my question. With a lump inside my throat I continued: - Please, don’t hurt me, please. - He sat down beside me. - Please… - I was now bawling uncontrollably.

- I am not going to hurt you. - He said. He was the same guy from before. I could tell by the sound of his voice and I swore I wanted to believe in him…but I really couldn’t, seeing as I was tied up, unable to see where and with whom I was… In this position the only thing I could feel was mistrust and fear. I was so frightened that I couldn’t even stop myself from trembling. - I swear I am not going to hurt you. - He insisted. I felt how the mattress bended. He was sitting even closer than before. - Do you believe in me? - What kind of question was that one?

- What are you doing - I heard someone ask from afar, though it sounded more as a harsh statement that a question. Hastily, he stood up and took one or two steps towards the voice. You could notice his change in temper. - I asked you something. -

- I-I wasn’t doing an-anything. - He stuttered.

- I asked him if I could go to the bathroom. - I said, even though I was not sure why. I was full of courage for one moment but, once I realized who I spoke to, I shrank back to the way I was before.

- Not now. Let’s go. - He answered and both of them left me alone in the room.

<<Chapter 1 - Nightmare   ----   Chapter 3 - Despair>>